What followed looked like rebuilding.
I moved to Manhattan. I devoted myself to creativity —photography, coaching, the work I believed in. And in many ways, I was finding myself.
But underneath the searching, something I couldn't yet name was still running the show.
Survival. Fear.
The need for safety so consuming that I used everything I loved — my creativity, my gifts, my work — as instruments to secure it.
Project after project. Shoot after shoot.
Always afraid that without enough money, enough work, enough security, I couldn't afford to be fully myself.